Worn out and ready for my bed (in Iowa)

It is has been a long month. I haven't been sleeping well at all lately. In fact, I haven't slept well since September... the week before I got sick and the gringos arrived. I am not sure what's happening or what's been going on in my mind to prevent me from sleeping. But it's really starting to affect me and take a toll on me. My attitude and my energy are going down hill. And it's so hard to not want to just shut the world out for a couple of days. It's even harder to not wish away my time and think about how I only have 44 days until I arrive home in Iowa. 

With being so tired and worn out, it's been hard to focus on the work I have before me. I am working on a picture project for the team and am beyond ready for it to be done. It's a lot of staring at a computer screen and waiting for things to save. It's frustrating. Especially when I work on it and then something glitches and I lose my work from the last two hours (that happened last night... not happy bout that one). Being tired and worn out also makes it hard for me to want to go to the barrios, be around the team or even be sociable with the missionary family or my host family. Which then makes me feel awful and as though I'm failing.

I am so ready for a good night's sleep. And a little bit of time to myself. Maybe once the picture project is over, I can take a day for myself. We shall see.

Prayers would be wonderful and much appreciated if you think of me in the coming week. Pray that I get rest and that my attitude doesn't completely sour to things and life here.