Life Changes 2012
So, as you all know I am engaged and marrying my best friend. We are getting married in 5 months (145 days to be exact... June 2nd). And I have been thinking a lot about all the life changes that are already beginning to take place... all leading up to that big day. One of them is living at home for a time of transition. My sisters, Samantha and Jenai, whom I have shared a room with since graduating high school are both gone so I have our huge room to myself now. It's very strange and kinda creeps me out. But it's a big life change... living at home without sharing a room. Another change is returning to my high-school job. I started working at Hy-Vee when I was 15 and thought I was done there at least 3 times, but always go back because it's a guaranteed job. So, I am training in a new area and getting ready to spend my final (this time it's for real) 5 months working at the Vee. Another life change is not being a college student anymore. I officially graduated as of December 31st and am now anxiously awaiting the arrival of my diploma from LCU. It's strange to see how everyone (including my fiance) is heading back to school this week and I am not. I am no longer bound by deadlines and papers and reading assignments and class lectures. But rather, I am entering the world of being an adult and preparing to start paying on my loans. That's a huge life change!
As I have thought about these life changes and how they are all leading me up to the day that I get to marry my best friend, there are a couple of other life changes I want to make. I want to live and eat healthier. I want to feel comfortable in my own skin. I want to feel comfortable and confident when I walk down the aisle in my gorgeous white dress to meet my husband. I am not one to talk openly about how I am self-conscious. My sisters always remind me that I am included in the Holley tradition of looking gorgeous all the time. But sometimes (okay, a lot of the time) I don't see it. And I know that that is just a part of me being a girl in today's culture. But it is also something that I have wrestled with lately, especially as I try to better recognize my beauty in the King who made me. It isn't an easy thing to believe and hold to always. But it's something that I am trying.
With all of that said... I am committing myself today to start eating healthier (even less junk food and sweets than I eat now... which isn't all that much) and to be more active. That part is going to be hard since my pronation (see definition here) seems to be getting bad again and my knees and hips are getting pretty awful as well. They are so bad that I bought a new brace for my knee and have a doctors appointment next month because the pain is pretty unbearable (and being on my feet at work 5-6 days a week is just making it worse). I am not sure if I can run anymore (or at least until I know what's going on). So, I am going to start riding my bike again (and when it's too cold I am going to set it up in my basement on my brother's trainer) and doing some basic ab and arm workouts in my house. I already know that it's going to be hard to stick to this and that there will be days when I really don't want to do anything. But, in order for me to be happy and comfortable in a white wedding dress and taking a million pictures on June 2nd, this is what I need to do. This isn't for my fiance. This isn't for our families or the people attending our wedding. This isn't to get compliments on how I look or anything like that. This is for me to feel good about myself. And to just feel better and healthier in general.
So there you go... my life changes for 2012. Wish me luck. And I am sure I will be sharing updates as I do this.
Here's to living healthier. Feeling better. And being comfortable in my own skin. Let's do this.
As I have thought about these life changes and how they are all leading me up to the day that I get to marry my best friend, there are a couple of other life changes I want to make. I want to live and eat healthier. I want to feel comfortable in my own skin. I want to feel comfortable and confident when I walk down the aisle in my gorgeous white dress to meet my husband. I am not one to talk openly about how I am self-conscious. My sisters always remind me that I am included in the Holley tradition of looking gorgeous all the time. But sometimes (okay, a lot of the time) I don't see it. And I know that that is just a part of me being a girl in today's culture. But it is also something that I have wrestled with lately, especially as I try to better recognize my beauty in the King who made me. It isn't an easy thing to believe and hold to always. But it's something that I am trying.
With all of that said... I am committing myself today to start eating healthier (even less junk food and sweets than I eat now... which isn't all that much) and to be more active. That part is going to be hard since my pronation (see definition here) seems to be getting bad again and my knees and hips are getting pretty awful as well. They are so bad that I bought a new brace for my knee and have a doctors appointment next month because the pain is pretty unbearable (and being on my feet at work 5-6 days a week is just making it worse). I am not sure if I can run anymore (or at least until I know what's going on). So, I am going to start riding my bike again (and when it's too cold I am going to set it up in my basement on my brother's trainer) and doing some basic ab and arm workouts in my house. I already know that it's going to be hard to stick to this and that there will be days when I really don't want to do anything. But, in order for me to be happy and comfortable in a white wedding dress and taking a million pictures on June 2nd, this is what I need to do. This isn't for my fiance. This isn't for our families or the people attending our wedding. This isn't to get compliments on how I look or anything like that. This is for me to feel good about myself. And to just feel better and healthier in general.
So there you go... my life changes for 2012. Wish me luck. And I am sure I will be sharing updates as I do this.
Here's to living healthier. Feeling better. And being comfortable in my own skin. Let's do this.
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