Roller Coaster
So my emotions are on the worst roller coaster ever invented. Literally. I hate roller coasters. And I hate emotions. They are driving me crazy.
Life has officially hit a new level of craziness for me. This last week, I put in more than 32 hours in a matter of four days at the Store (and I am a part-time employee... figure that one out!). I went to my bridal shower put on by my lovely mommy that I did my best to enjoy (I hate having people watch me or being put in the spotlight so it was not as fun for me as it is for others). I created and finished a video for the judges of the Hy-Vee Springtime Party event and still have no idea what anyone thinks of it because no one at the Store could figure out how to watch it. I have not being sleeping well. And now my room has been taken over by gifts and boxes that I have to sort and pack. Let's just say I am more than a little overwhelmed.
I seriously am just at the point where I want to crawl in bed and not move for a couple of days. I want to read the book that I have been trying to read all month and maybe even finish it. I want to watch a movie without having to be working on my To-Do list at the same time. I want to go out with a friend and not have to watch the clock or think of what project is awaiting me when I get home. I know that I am a task-oriented perfectionist (thank you personality assessment and freshman year at LCU), but it seriously is not a good thing at this point in time. It's killing me. Slowly but surely.
Through all of this I am trying to remind myself to enjoy everything. To enjoy creating things for my wedding. To enjoy sorting through things and remembering memories as I pack. To remember that this is just the next step in life and to not regret getting so stressed out come June 3rd. But that is easier said than done. I for serious have no idea how to relax with out everything staring me in the face and making me feel guilty for not doing work or finishing projects. I know that I am not in school. I know that I am only working part time. But seriously. I feel like I can't get ahead of anything. Especially as I look at the calendar and realize that in 2 weeks I am walking in graduation and then moving my things to our new house. In 3 weeks I am in my best friend's wedding. In 5 weeks I am getting married. It's just a lot to think about and finish between now and then. And I cannot tell you how ready I am for it all to be done and over just so that I can breathe again.
I am super excited for June 2nd because that is when I get to marry My Love and start our new life with him. But as the days go by I am growing more and more excited for June 8th which is the day we kick off our honeymoon and get to escape life for a week and just relax. Both days are going to be wonderful. I just know it.
Life has officially hit a new level of craziness for me. This last week, I put in more than 32 hours in a matter of four days at the Store (and I am a part-time employee... figure that one out!). I went to my bridal shower put on by my lovely mommy that I did my best to enjoy (I hate having people watch me or being put in the spotlight so it was not as fun for me as it is for others). I created and finished a video for the judges of the Hy-Vee Springtime Party event and still have no idea what anyone thinks of it because no one at the Store could figure out how to watch it. I have not being sleeping well. And now my room has been taken over by gifts and boxes that I have to sort and pack. Let's just say I am more than a little overwhelmed.
I seriously am just at the point where I want to crawl in bed and not move for a couple of days. I want to read the book that I have been trying to read all month and maybe even finish it. I want to watch a movie without having to be working on my To-Do list at the same time. I want to go out with a friend and not have to watch the clock or think of what project is awaiting me when I get home. I know that I am a task-oriented perfectionist (thank you personality assessment and freshman year at LCU), but it seriously is not a good thing at this point in time. It's killing me. Slowly but surely.
Through all of this I am trying to remind myself to enjoy everything. To enjoy creating things for my wedding. To enjoy sorting through things and remembering memories as I pack. To remember that this is just the next step in life and to not regret getting so stressed out come June 3rd. But that is easier said than done. I for serious have no idea how to relax with out everything staring me in the face and making me feel guilty for not doing work or finishing projects. I know that I am not in school. I know that I am only working part time. But seriously. I feel like I can't get ahead of anything. Especially as I look at the calendar and realize that in 2 weeks I am walking in graduation and then moving my things to our new house. In 3 weeks I am in my best friend's wedding. In 5 weeks I am getting married. It's just a lot to think about and finish between now and then. And I cannot tell you how ready I am for it all to be done and over just so that I can breathe again.
I am super excited for June 2nd because that is when I get to marry My Love and start our new life with him. But as the days go by I am growing more and more excited for June 8th which is the day we kick off our honeymoon and get to escape life for a week and just relax. Both days are going to be wonderful. I just know it.
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