kinda numb...

LCU Class of 2011 is officially graduated. I am so proud of my classmates. I wish them the best in everything they do as they leave this campus. I pray that God will always be with them. And remember that this campus is standing behind them in support.

I tried not to cry the whole way through the ceremony as I watched my best friends and classmates walk across the stage. As I sit here I am letting the tears fall. I am a whole conglomeration of emotions. I am so excited, happy and proud of my classmates. But at the same time I am sad, lonely and jealous. I hate feeling so torn up inside. Today is meant to be a day of excitement and celebration for this campus, for my class. I shouldn't be feeling so sad and jealous. I am sad because now everything changes. Things are no longer safe and easy. I am sad and jealous because I didn't get to walk with my class, with my best friends, with the students I have suffered through missions projects with, with the students who built me up and encouraged me day in and day out.I am sad because everything changes now. And I feel almost as though I'm being left behind since I'm not officially done yet and my classmates are. It's just a lot to process right now. It's not easy. It's not fun. It's pretty lonely. And I'm wanting to hide from it all. But know that I can't.

LCU Class of 2011... I am beyond proud of all that you have accomplished and all that you will do from here on out. Thank you for being my friends. My encouragers. My classmates. My sisters. My brothers. I love and am proud of you all.