the end of a chapter...
Today marks the end of a chapter for me. I just attended my last LCU chapel service as an undergraduate student and I have just one last lecture to attend today. Then after a final tomorrow and turning a paper in on Friday, my career as a student is over. At least, until I begin my masters program anyway (if that's what I decide to do). Today's chapel was very much a celebration. A time of praise and community and worship. Being thankful for GOD having got us through another year and prayer for those (faculty especially) who are now beginning to transition out of our community. It's hard to think that so many people are leaving and that next year will not be the same. I may not even be back next year depending on where life takes me in the next 7 1/2 months. Everything is changing. Everything is ending. Everything is beginning differently. It's so strange.
I fought back tears in chapel as I sat and watched my professors and fellow students worshipping. I stood quietly as I listened to the loud voices around me. I don't think I have ever heard it so loud for a chapel service.
I fought back tears as I realized that I don't get to walk with my class this Saturday. Instead I will be sitting in the crowd cheering them on. Wishing I was standing there with them. I hadn't realized until today how much I wish I was walking with them. And I think that's part of why I now don't want to walk at all next year. It may be selfish. But I spent four years with this class. And I feel left behind. Even though I know I am leaving this campus with them. I just have to finish my internship before I can be officially done. But nonetheless, I wish I was walking and celebrating with them this Saturday.
I fought back tears as I thought about how much I have changed and how blessed I have been over the last four years of my education here. I have gotten to sit at the feet of brilliant men and women who love Jesus with everything in them and are committed to helping others do the same. I cannot express with words how grateful I am to all of them (or at least most of them) for how they have touched my life and made me into the person I am today.
My time here is ending. I have only a matter of days before I leave. I am ready. But then again, I am not. I am excited. But then again, I'm frightened. The end of a chapter is here. The start of a new one is just around the corner.
I fought back tears in chapel as I sat and watched my professors and fellow students worshipping. I stood quietly as I listened to the loud voices around me. I don't think I have ever heard it so loud for a chapel service.
I fought back tears as I realized that I don't get to walk with my class this Saturday. Instead I will be sitting in the crowd cheering them on. Wishing I was standing there with them. I hadn't realized until today how much I wish I was walking with them. And I think that's part of why I now don't want to walk at all next year. It may be selfish. But I spent four years with this class. And I feel left behind. Even though I know I am leaving this campus with them. I just have to finish my internship before I can be officially done. But nonetheless, I wish I was walking and celebrating with them this Saturday.
I fought back tears as I thought about how much I have changed and how blessed I have been over the last four years of my education here. I have gotten to sit at the feet of brilliant men and women who love Jesus with everything in them and are committed to helping others do the same. I cannot express with words how grateful I am to all of them (or at least most of them) for how they have touched my life and made me into the person I am today.
My time here is ending. I have only a matter of days before I leave. I am ready. But then again, I am not. I am excited. But then again, I'm frightened. The end of a chapter is here. The start of a new one is just around the corner.
I love you girl! Just wanted you to know! You are an amazing woman of God and you will go so far in life....let the ride take you and enjoy every minute of it!
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