Senior Year... already?!?!

So, I can't lie... but I am really starting to freak out inside about this whole being a senior at LCU thing. And I know that it is super silly. But I can't really help it right now. Especially as I watch all the freshman/new student transfers this weekend settle in and go through orientation. I feel so old right now. And so out of place. I know that may be a silly thing. But oh well. The reality is I am getting super emotional and super scared about this year. I don't even fully know why. I think it's getting worse because I know that my closest friends aren't here and the two that are will only be here for a short while longer. And then I will have a semester on my own. The crazy thing is that I was the freshman 3 years ago. And now I am the cranky old, senior wanting the freshman to calm down and not invade my home. What happened to me? Where did the last 3 years go? Why did I have to grow up and get old? I don't like it. I wish I could forever be a college student or run away to NeverLand. And another thing that is really beginning to scare me is the reality that come spring I have to be a grown up. I have to figure out what I am going to do upon my return from Peru and where I am going to live and work. Its a lot of scary stuff to think about and face. And to be honest... I really don't like it. Sometimes, I think that this should be the best year of my life and that I should be so excited about getting to close a chapter of my life and start a new one. But when I really begin to think about it... I freak out. Hmm... I wish I could just freeze time for a little bit.