Letters... prayers... hopes... dreams...

I seem to constantly be writing letters these days. Mostly different versions of support letters. Trying to rephrase them depending on whom I am writing to. Some of them are being written to complete strangers. And that scares me to no end. I feel as if I am in no place to write to people I have never met and ask them to support me, not just with prayers, but with checks. A part of me doesn't know whether I should send these letters or not. But family and friends say that I should. I hope and pray with everything in me that I am not stepping on peoples toes or offending them with my request. My biggest fear is that people will see my request as selfish or out of line or even taking away from what is already being given to the Church or "full-time/trained" missionaries. I know these may be silly fears. But they are very real to me right now.

I know that it is still too early for me to be really concerned about my finances for this adventure. But I cannot lie. As I see the days on the calendar continue to pass away so quickly... as I watch March, April and May draw nearer and nearer... I am reminded of just how much I have to raise and how little time is left. I know that I serve a big God and that if this is really from His hand and is a part of His will then He will provide what is needed. I just wish He would do it quickly so that I wouldn't worry quite so much. Yes, I know I don't even need to worry. But my personality is one that worries without end. It's a great fault of mine and one that I have to face and challenge every day. But I can't deny that right now, my biggest worry is about how and when all of the funds needed for my internship will come in.