Time and Change
Time. It's a tricky thing. Some days it seems to drag on slower than a snail. Other days it seems to fly by as fast as a hummingbird. Some days it seems to be a dear friend. Other days it seems to be an enemy.
Change. Again, it's a tricky thing. Some days it can be good. Other days it can be terrible. Some days it can be a blessing. Other days its a painful experience.
Time and change are two things I am deeply wrestling with.
Nearly 3.5 years have gone by since My Love was hired as youth minister at our first ministry. Nearly 3 years have gone by since I started working full time at our Mother's Day Out program. Just over 3 years have gone by since My Love and I said "I do."
And now time is racing forward and change is coming yet again.
We have stepped down from our positions at the church and MDO. And in a matter of 4 short days we will be moving back to Lincoln Christian University.
Leaving the first home we had as husband and wife. Leaving our first ministry. Leaving our first group of students and families that we lived life alongside of. Leaving a 3.5 year old piece of our life.
And we are going into a time of transition, change, uncertainty. We are walking into the unknown with only a small piece of road visible ahead of us.
To be honest, I am scared to death. I am terrified of what may be ahead of us. I am freaked out by not having the whole plan laid out for us.
But then there is that still small voice (most often sounding like my mom) that tells me to sit quietly and to just trust. To wait patiently and to not worry.
Now for me, that's much easier said than done. But right now, as I sit and look at the to-do list growing bigger and the calendar and clock ticking away faster, I can't help but cry out in my soul for GOD to show up in this. I can't help but cry out in my soul for GOD to take this burden because I have fallen beneath it.
Change. Again, it's a tricky thing. Some days it can be good. Other days it can be terrible. Some days it can be a blessing. Other days its a painful experience.
Time and change are two things I am deeply wrestling with.
Nearly 3.5 years have gone by since My Love was hired as youth minister at our first ministry. Nearly 3 years have gone by since I started working full time at our Mother's Day Out program. Just over 3 years have gone by since My Love and I said "I do."
And now time is racing forward and change is coming yet again.
We have stepped down from our positions at the church and MDO. And in a matter of 4 short days we will be moving back to Lincoln Christian University.
Leaving the first home we had as husband and wife. Leaving our first ministry. Leaving our first group of students and families that we lived life alongside of. Leaving a 3.5 year old piece of our life.
And we are going into a time of transition, change, uncertainty. We are walking into the unknown with only a small piece of road visible ahead of us.
To be honest, I am scared to death. I am terrified of what may be ahead of us. I am freaked out by not having the whole plan laid out for us.
But then there is that still small voice (most often sounding like my mom) that tells me to sit quietly and to just trust. To wait patiently and to not worry.
Now for me, that's much easier said than done. But right now, as I sit and look at the to-do list growing bigger and the calendar and clock ticking away faster, I can't help but cry out in my soul for GOD to show up in this. I can't help but cry out in my soul for GOD to take this burden because I have fallen beneath it.
Hi Kiersten! I am so right there with you -- lots of big changes coming up in the next month, and I don't feel like I have enough time to prepare for it. I'll be praying for you to trust God with everything that's going on in your life right now. I agree -- it's so much easier said than done.
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