Mid-life crisis at age 21?
I feel so scatter-brained right now so if this doesn't make much sense... I am terribly sorry. But I will do the best I can to make it make sense. As the title of this post may imply... I feel like I am facing a mid-life crisis at the age of 21. Is that possible? Are mid-life crises even real? I don't know, but that's what I feel I'm up against right now. If you're reading this, you are probably wondering what the heck I am talking about or why I am talking about mid-life crisis. Let me tell ya. I am a missions major at Lincoln Christian University with my focus being in children's ministry. Most of my classes for my focus hours are on child development and ministering to children at-risk. Pretty amazing stuff. I am loving the two classes I am in this semester. One is called Ministry to Children in Crisis and the other one is Ministry to Urban Children and Youth. They are very similar, but yet build one top of the other one. And it's amazing. I am learning so much and am so intrigued by each new thing I read or hear. It is amazing how ministry can be done in such creative ways. I am beginning to learn how to think outside the box when it comes to ministry and strategies. But I am also beginning to struggle at the same time. I have technically changed my focus 3 times since I was a freshman. I have never changed from being a missions major... just changed what I wanted to focus in. I started out as TESOL then switched to elementary education and then again to children's ministry which is what it is today. But right now if anyone was to ask me what I want to do... I wouldn't have a solid answer because I have no idea. GOD has given me a love for the Hispanic culture and a love for working with kids. But I have absolutely no idea how I am supposed to put those two loves together. Or where. Or when. And it really has me freaking out a bit. Especially because I am beginning to work out details for my upcoming internship and finishing my last few hours of course credits. And I feel as if I am not ready in any way to take on a ministry anywhere. I dont know where GOD is going to take me. I have played with the idea of getting a degree in social work and/or counseling. I have thought about getting a degree in education. But I just dont know. There are so many things I want to do, places to see. But I feel as if I have too many dreams in my head and not enough answers, roads, plans, or open windows to accomplish them all. This semester GOD is really placing the inner-city kids on my heart and I have no idea what that means. Since I was in junior high and heard Mincayani and Steve Saint talk about the Ecuador5 I have wanted to be overseas in a Latin American country. But now, the Hispanic people in the inner-city are being placed on my heart. And I dont know what to do with that. I feel so torn right now. I feel as if I am facing a mid-life crisis at the age of 21 and have no idea where to go or what to do. I just feel lost right now. And dont know what to think of it all. Too many dreams, too many plans, but not enough ways of making it all happen. Who knows... is it possible for a 21 year old to have a mid-life crisis? Just wondering.

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